OMG what a year. It's been intense for me. And maybe you too?! Almost everyone I talk to has also had a tough year. It's just a tough time I think.
So this feels like the wonderful miracle I needed to complete another year and dive into a wonderfully new bright, bold and beautiful one.
Even though I have gotten SO MUCH just from writing this book already. So even if it didn't get published, and we didn't hit our funding goal so I could print it and ship it to you, it would have already been a huge personal success for me. But it feels like I really kinda needed this win... so thank you everyone 🥹😭
But I do have to share just a little about how profound writing this book so far has been for me.
It's MADE me grieve.
It's MADE me walk my talk and feel the pain of missing Ellie...even when I just wanted a pity party and a bottle of wine instead.
And it's MADE me talk to Ellie consistently.
And it's truly HELD MY HAND through my grieving process. It's all just been so profound.
They say if you really want to learn something, teach it. And that's so true.
I love being able to share the wealth of Psychology and Healing education and training I have been privileged with. It's changed my life. But not everyone gets to get Doctorate degrees and pay for professional therapy. And so when Fenix' online presence blew up, and still every day, that's what inspires me the most – getting to serve and support the world at large with emotional tools and spiritual skills for health and happiness.
I still cry most days with Ellie. But it's not horrifically painful anymore.
Most days my tears are quite bright and beautiful, tinged with just a small sharp stab to my heart, before mellowing into a huge ocean of loving and closeness as I feel Ellie so full in my heart.
And of course I have the miracle and magic of having Fenix by my side 24/7. He has helped me through in a way I'll never fully understand. Because as we know ALL dogs are healers. Not just the blue ones 🤣
Anyway, I got off track. I came to say thank you.
Thank you for supporting us. Thank you for pledging if you were able. Thank you for liking, commenting, sharing and supporting our posts about The Blue Healer. And thanks just for being here and invisibly sending me your Light, prayers and positive vibes. They have ALL been felt.
And even though I will never be able to personally thank you for the profound gift your love and support has meant to me, I hope you feel my sincere and heartfelt gratitude for everything 🥹 Thank you so much 😭
Ok that's it.
Fenix is at my feet. We drove up to Sonoma yesterday. Time with family before tracking down some snow next week 🤞 We're thinking of hitting Mammoth or Truckee or Tahoe 🤔 Suggestions (in California ideally) are gratefully received 😉
You can still preorder a copy of The Blue Healer - until February I think. If you preorder through the kickstarter you'll save $$ and get online bonuses. After that retail sales will be more.
Ok then. Hope you're holidays are feeling full and festive already.
We love you.
Me (Zoë), Fenix and 🌈 Ellie xooxoxoxooxoxox.
