What if grief, sadness, and all human pain isn't meant to bring us down and destroy us...
But is divinely designed to help us find a Greater Way through Life, and help us live our Authentic Purpose and Path in life.
Join us for a 17-Week Online Program for reconnecting to your Rainbow 🌈 Loved Ones and awakening to the Courage and Clarity they came to give you.
Hi 👋🏼 I'm Dr Zoë Lumiere
I help humans use their greatest adversities and emotional pain, to awaken to their path and purpose.
Join Dr Zoë and Ellie
for a 17-Week Online Program
'Transforming Grief into Greatness:
17 Experiences for Feeling, Healing & Revealing Your Life’s Path & Purpose'
"Working with Dr Zoë was not what I expected at all. The whole process is so soft and safe. I thought it was going to be much more painful. I trust life and relationships so much more now. This was the best gift I've ever given myself."
ROBIN SMITHSON
This 17-Week Online Program is designed to support any human feel, heal and reveal their path and purpose through the compassionate grieving of losing a loved one ... Your 'Rainbow Ones'🌈
Your loved ones came to awaken you to all that you really are, and to help you find your gifts of Love, Compassion and Courage.
This is NOT a Journey for the Faint of Heart ❤️🔥
It's a journey for those sensitive, compassionate beings that are ready to break free into the big, bold, beauty of their Loving Heart.
Join LIVE via Zoom or Watch the Video Recording 📹
We’ll meet on Zoom every week, or you can watch the video recordings at a time that works best for you.
Every Wednesday @ 6PM Pacific Starting February 19 🗓️
We will meet on Wednesday Evenings at 6PM - 7:30PM Pacific Time
Starting February 19 – June 11
"Dr Zoë gave me my life back. I still miss Poppy. But I can feel her again. And I can sleep, and enjoy life again too."
ELAINE LEERMONTH
RegisterYou Will Be Encouraged to Connect and Share 🥹
You can remain completely anonymous and just observe, and that is 💯 okay.
And Dr Zoë will gently encourage everyone to connect with others in the Zoom Room and to share with each other and build relationships and friendships.
Dr Zoë has led online healing experiences for 10 years and is an expert in creating safe, sacred and confidential communities and spaces.
Rescue / Shelter Workers Receive FREE Access
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You will first receive a confirmation of your payment.
And then you will be manually sent an email within the next 24 hours, giving you full details for accessing the Online Program.
The 17-Week Online Program 'The Blue Healing Experience'
RegisterWeek 1: Introduction • Grief Invites Us Into Our Gifts & Greatness
In week 1 Dr Zoë will highlight the overall arch of the 'Compassionate Grieving Journey' and how it is uniquely and perfectly designed to reveal your unique inner gifts, our own brand of greatness, and the clarity and courage we need to live our path and purpose.
Dr Zoë will also guide the group through the guided experience: Creating a Safe Sacred Space and Getting Your Healing Book 🛋️ 📘
Week 2: Why Most People Don’t Grieve and the Science We Need to Know How
In week 2 Dr Zoë will briefly highlight the Psychology and recent NeuroScience urging all humans to learn how to feel and grieve so that we can heal the limiting patterns in our life.
Dr Zoë will also guide the group through the guided experience: An Emotional Health Audit 📋
Week 3: Allowing Ourselves to Be Shaken [A New Approach called Compassionate Grieving]
In week 3 Dr Zoë will share the heart of compassionate grieving and why it will shake us awake to greater energy, love and life.
Dr Zoë will also guide the group through the guided experience: Navigating the Initial Shock for Resetting Our Nervous System 🔌
Week 4: Letting Go and Allowing the Waves of Feeling and Healing
In week 4 Zoë will share principles of Somatic Grieving and Trauma-Informed Somatic Therapy in support of your own unique compassionate grieving journey with your loved ones.
Dr Zoë will also guide the group through the experience: Allowing the Tidal Wave 🌊
Week 5: Learning to Live in Your Body [Rewiring Disassociation for Health & Happiness]
In week 5 Dr Zoë will unpack the neuroscience of grieving and the role it can play in rewiring your neural pathways for greater health and happiness. This week also highlights how grieving powerfully releases the negative patterns often created through childhood.
Dr Zoë will also guide the group through the experience: Feeling Emotion in Your Body🫀
Week 6: Self-Compassion [THE Missing Ingredient]
In week 6 Dr Zoë will share why and how Self-Compassion has been the missing ingredient from successful therapy and healing modalities, and how to grow your own inner sacred muscles of Self-Compassion for creating the most bold, beautiful and brilliant life you want.
Dr Zoë will guide the group through: Being Held by Your Own Compassion 🤗
"I didn't think I'd ever be able to smile again. But now I have skills and a way to contact Tony when I need. This is magical. And life-changing."
HOLLY LEVINSON
RegisterWeek 7: Feeling for Healing™ [4 Steps for Rewiring back to Health]
In week 7 Dr Zoë will share the 4-step process for moving through grief and emotional pain in a way that releases unresolved emotion and experience from the past, and reconnects us with the experiences we need to grow and thrive.
Dr Zoë will guide the group through: The 4-Step Feeling for Healing™ Process ❤️🩹
Week 8: Inner Child Healing through Somatic Grieving
Dr Zoë will share the basics of inner child healing through a somatic grieving model so that you will both understand and be able to implement a foundational habit of inner child healing as you grieve and reconnect with your Rainbow Ones.
Dr Zoë will guide the group through: Inner Child Healing🤰
Week 9: The Power of Positive Projection
Dr Zoë will use the principles and practice of positive projection in Spiritual Psychology as a powerful key for reconnecting with Rainbow Ones. This perspective and practice awakens us into a clear path for living the gifts and lessons our rainbow ones came to share.
Dr Zoë will guide the group through: Reclaiming Your Source & Life-Force 🫶
Week 10: Reconnecting with Your Rainbow Ones
Dr Zoë will share about the process of reconnecting with your Rainbow Ones, including how to create consistent habits for rebuilding a relationship with your rainbow ones.
Dr Zoë will guide the group through: THE Letter 🌈
Week 11: Expanding into Two Way Dialogue with Your Rainbow Ones
Dr Zoë will share the power and simplicity of dialoguing with your loved ones that have passed over... your Rainbow Ones. Get ready to experience not just the power and love of your loved ones again, but the rainbow gifts they came to give you.
Dr Zoë will guide the group through: Letting Your Rainbow Ones Back In 🚪
Week 12: Celebrating Your Rainbow Ones
Dr Zoë will inspire us all in an exploration of how to include, honor and celebrate our Rainbow Ones in our lives fully. We can create negative experience in our hearts and in our lives when we deny our inherent need to express and celebrate our rainbow ones.
Dr Zoë will guide the group through: Creating Your Own Unique Rainbow Celebrations 🎉
I am beyond grateful for the profound healing and growth I've experienced in the last year. When I first met Zoe I was physically and emotionally debilitated by the loss of my soulmate dog. I felt lost, isolated, and misunderstood until I experienced the loving support of the sessions. The compassion, vulnerability and spiritual insight offered helped me reconnect with my inner child, and grow in so many unexpected areas of my life. Zoe is an angel, with a beautiful gift to help others heal their darkest pain, and find love and strength within themselves to break through to happiness and ease.
KIM L
Week 13: Unpacking Guilt [The Irrational and Inevitable Lies We Live]
Dr Zoë will share the truth around the guilt, and how inescapable it is when we are sensitive and compassionate, but more importantly how to release it and recover from it.
Dr Zoë will guide the group through: Releasing Guilt through Self-Compassionate Forgiveness 🕊️
Week 14: Navigating Compassion Fatigue [Self-Care Boundaries]
Dr Zoë will unpack compassion fatigue and how to navigate in various stages of life and compassionate grieving. Together we will explore practical next steps for creating boundaries necessary for self-care and sanity.
Dr Zoë will guide the group through: Creating Your Unique Lifestyle and Clear Boundaries of Self-Care 🏁
Week 15: Sharing Your Story [Authentic Expression]
Dr Zoë will share about the 2 basic needs of human beings: Attachment and Authenticity. In the first 14 weeks we will have intimately unpacked our need for attachment, and how to evolve this specific attachment within. In week 15 we will now be able to springboard into our need for Authentic Expression, as a key for awakening our path and purpose on this planet at this time.
Dr Zoë will guide the group through: Sharing Your Rainbow Loved Ones Your Way 🦄
Dr Zoë's empathy and compassion allowed me to connect with Cisco's spirit. When I cried, she cried with me.
She never dismissed the gauntlet of feelings - rage, sadness, questioning, emptiness.
She gave me the space to miss him forever.
With her guidance, I saw all that he taught me about love, understanding, patience, compassion, kindness. Now, I have 2 more rescues to love.
SHEILA PARKS
Week 16: Living Your Purpose
Dr Zoë will share how all heartache and emotional pain helps us expand into a higher frequency of Love and intuition. Continuing to show up for ourselves with emotional courage and self-compassion reliably awakens us to the experiences we are here to receive, give and share.
Dr Zoë will guide the group through: Allowing Love to Show You YOUR Way 🥰
Week 17: Enjoying Your Path
Dr Zoë will support the group in the creation of their own unique habits of feeling for healing™ as a consistent best friend and support for continuing to receive the clarity and next steps for following our path and fulfilling our purpose.
Dr Zoë will guide the group through: You Are the Architect of Your Life and Your Rainbow Ones are Your ArchAnimals 🗺
Ellie will be joining us 🥹
I'll be sharing about Ellie and about how she has been a huge part of the inspiration AND the writing of this program and the book 'The Blue Healer'. I'll also be playing some videos of Ellie, to bring her essence into the experience with us.
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The Back Story
About Ellie and 'The Blue Healer'
Fenix’s online family continues to bring opportunities to give back and support other disabled rescue dogs like Fenix.
In June 2024, a rescue in Santa Paula reached out asking if I could help share the story of a neurologically disabled blue heeler puppy who needed a home, who had the same neurological disorder Fenix has. This wasn’t part of my plan; I wasn’t looking for another dog. But when I took Fenix to the Santa Paula Animal Rescue Center (SPARC) to film a video about the little blue heeler named Ellie, I just couldn’t leave her there.
Ellie had been dumped in a box at a gas station when she was just eight weeks old.
After being in the rescue for over two months, her condition was so severe that she couldn’t stand or walk without falling over. A shelter wasn’t the right place for her. She had sores on her face, paws and tail. The moment I laid eyes on her, I knew she was meant to come home with me.
It felt so natural—like the first time I saw Fenix and tears filled my eyes because I knew he was meant to be ours. I felt that same rush of love and connection with Ellie, and I sobbed. I just knew I was meant to take her home with me. Whatever you call it—God, the Universe, or that Higher Power—something was telling me to bring her home.
Ellie Is My Most Irrational & Intuitive Adventure Yet
And the Most Healing…
Rationally, bringing Ellie home made no sense at all. I was about to have family visiting for a couple of months, and my life was already too busy. Everything screamed that I didn’t have what it took to care for another special needs animal, particularly one with such a severe neurological condition. Yet my intuition, shaped by the healing work I’d done through my own past grief, guided me.
I can’t explain or prove this, but I know that my healing and grieving work has made a huge difference in my life. If I hadn’t worked through my relationship with my Mum, I wouldn’t have the strong intuition I have today. It’s this clarity and courage that helped me bring Ellie home. My inner voice is now so powerful that it guides me to choose love, even when it feels impossible. And while I know following this inner intuitive voice won’t necessarily be easy, I do know that choosing it is choosing great miracles and magic.
Everyone around me was telling me not to bring Ellie home. Everyone.
And while the story I’m about to share with you is not an easy one, it’s been one of the most beautiful experiences of my life, and one I wouldn’t trade for anything.
Caring for Ellie tested every bit of my emotional, mental and physical strength. I spent hours each day helping her learn to walk, feeding her, holding her for bathroom breaks, and playing with her. It was exhausting; even holding a teething toy was a challenge for her so I would often lay beside her, helping her keep it in her mouth as she teethed painfully.
Sometimes when we’re asked to do impossible things, we find super-human muscles of love and courage to carry us through. Being with and caring for Ellie broke me open into a kind of devotion I had not known before.
I knew this journey would be challenging, but I never expected it to ask so much of me. At the same time, it's hard to believe how much it has given me in return.
It's my life-changing experience with Ellie that inspired me to write this book. And as I dialogued with Ellie, and received her loving and wisdom for me, I grew in the boldness I needed to share it with the world.
I have spent the last 15 years reconnecting with my Rainbow 🌈 Mum. She died when I was 14, but it wasn't until I was about 30 that I really started letting her in to my heart again.
Reconnecting to our Rainbow Ones heals us in profound ways, but it also gives us the Clarity and Courage to really LIVE fully right NOW.
Email me if you have questions.
We Love You
Zoe 🤗 , Fenix 🐾 & 🌈 Ellie 🐶
There is no easy, or right way to say this 😩
We let Ellie cross that rainbow bridge this afternoon (Sep 3) 😭
Ellie got her MRI this morning, and this was the neuro/vet’s summary:
Ellie has severe hydrocephalus. She has spinal fluid filling the brain cavity and pushing in on her brain. This is the reason for changes in her behavior and loss of eyesight. This, unfortunately, cannot be repaired and likely causes her an extreme amount of pain. For Ellie this would also cause a level of fear as animals are both predator and prey. She likely feels fear that she is debilitating and, to her mind, becoming risk as prey. Physically and mentally she is declining and her pain and fear will continue to increase rapidly.
We queried about having a stent put in? But given the extent of her brain damage and the fact it is progressing so quickly, we assessed it would only mean more pain and fear for Ellie, having to go through not just one brain surgery, but perhaps multiple. Because her hydrocephalus is from every area around the brain, the entire cavity was filled. To put in a stent means that the stents would have to be monitored and potentially replaced throughout her life. This won’t stop the flow of spinal fluid that causes it. It will, in essence, simply redirect it.
It was so clear to the team (me, my husband, Nicky & Regina from SPARC) that the most loving thing for her was to be humanely euthanized.
So Eric and I brought her favorite toys and snacks in, and I held her in my arms, while she crossed the rainbow bridge and started to run, jump, play and be free… finally.
I’m devastated. I might need a break. And I might be sharing a LOT about it soon. I’m taking it moment by moment.
But I wanted to let you know – as you have ALL done so much for her, and I want you each to know she appreciates it all so much. She knew love. She knew miracles. She knew she was a healer. Not just a blue heeler. A healer.
When I can…
• I want to share with you about the home she didn’t get to go to. Her Ohio Dad’s name is Michael.
• And I want to share with you all about how she changed me. How she healed me.
• About her wheels, funds and legacy.
Love, Zoë
Thank You SPARC
We initially began fostering Ellie from Santa Paula Animal Rescue Center to see if she might be a great part of our forever pack.
We worked closely with the team at SPARC in the end, to assess and make that decision to allow her to transition. After we received her MRI results, for me at least, it was a very easy decision.
Because while I didn't share about it much, Ellie was incredibly reactive, growled a lot, and exhibited what I thought was highly traumatized behavior. While she would have MANY moments of appearing happy and relaxed, the smallest things like a sound, would put her in a frenzied state of growling and tremoring. So I just knew, given her new diagnosis, that she had been in more fear, and pain, than any dog should be going through.
And while it does had to the heaviness in my heart, knowing the true extent of all Ellie was going through day to day, I am so glad that we could clearly set her free of that fear and pain.
It was wonderful to work so close with such a kind and loving team at SPARC. I worked with Nicky Gore-Jones, Development Director and Regina Wilcox, Veterinary Liaison, and Dr Higgins, Neurologist at VMSG to make the final decision.
And while their recommendation to end her suffering was absolute, I'll never forget how they empowered and allowed me to advocate for Ellie, as the one that had been her constant companion for months 🥹 That meant so much. I felt both supported and not alone, but also honored as Ellie's Mum.
Learn more about SPARC and support their great works. They are a NO-KILL shelter and rescue in Santa Paula, and survive only because of community support.
Thank You Michael, Ellie's Ohio Dad
We were planning to fly/drive Ellie to her forever home in Ohio with Michael, Zeus, Indiana and Mac, on Monday 🥹
We talked often these past couple of weeks, as we were preparing everything required. We just needed to wait for the MRI (so Ellie could be cleared to fly) and to pick up her new wheelchair/cart (scheduled for today) 😭
It was the IMPOSSIBLE and UNTHINKABLY perfect set up.
Michael rescued a blind white husky Zeus (that looks like Fenix 🤣) so he had already bump proofed his house, and had experience supporting special needs dogs. His work is flexible so he was ready and able to spend as much time as needed with Ellie.
His rowdy 1-year old Samoyed pup Indiana was ready to play with her. And Mac, the 9-year old lab-pit mix was the gentle older dog that has already proven masterful at mentoring and dealing with wild puppy energy!
If the MRI showed that we couldn’t fly, we were planning to drive the whole way to Ohio, and Michael offered to drive too, to meet us somewhere in the middle.
For a couple of weeks now Michael has been planning on receiving her little girl Ellie. And so we have cried and consoled each other over these past couple of days. And we FaceTimed Michael in her final hour, so that Ellie could hear his voice, and feel his love 😭
Michael himself has undergone severe TBIs (traumatic brain injuries) in his early 30s, and so he was ready to show the world, that together, they could overcome all their wobbles and wonkiness together.
But Ellie had better plans. She was ready to run and jump and fly now. And so while it is still so painful, and so hard, I am starting to feel more of the joy and the celebration, that Ellie is truly happy and free now. And being forever connected with Michael is one of her parting gifts to us 🥹
Please do join me in welcoming Michael in our family. Join me in thanking and honoring him.
In the pics you can see that Michael has turned his living room into one massive dog bed. His whole life is his dogs. There may have only been one human willing to sacrifice so much for Ellie. Michael thank you for being that one 😭
Thank You Aja
It was Aja, a fan of Fenix that also lived in Ventura, who was also the Office Manager at SPARC at the time, that emailed me to see if I might come and help them find a foster or forever home for Ellie, as after 2 months, they still hadn't had any interest in her.
So I came out, intending ONLY to make a video and post online. And as soon as I walked in and held her in my arms I said: 'Oh no... I think she's coming home with me' 😭
Thank you Aja for helping Ellie receive the love she needed while at SPARC, and also with us (Fenix, Zoe and Eric 😉)
You can see Ellie in Aja's arms below 🥹 And you see Aja at the beginning of this video too. We love you Aja xoxooxoxoxox.
Thank YOU 🙏
Thank you so much for being a part of our family.
And thank you for all the Love, prayers and support you've been sending.
We Love You.
Zoë, Eric, Fenix and Ellie 🐾 🌈
My Journey with Ellie
There are no words that will ever convey the specialness of the bond and time I had with Ellie. We shared 2 months and 2 days together. She was always with me, except when she was napping and I was with her, watching her on baby cam.
Because of all she'd been through, it was important to me to not allow her to feel abandoned yet again. So when she was 3, 4 and 5 months old, and almost 6 months old... I didn't leave her. This was inspired mostly by the sage advice I received from Carol from Soul2SoulDog. Carol told me that dogs in the wild, are never alone until they are about 9 or 10 months old. Their mother, or other elders in the pack, will not leave a pup alone, until 9 or 10 months old. And I do know that I could do this, because my heart just knew it was what Ellie needed. And now that she is no longer here, I am so glad that I was able to give her such safety, love and belonging, in the very short time she was here. She got to know the miracle of family.
I may or may not keep sharing about my time with Ellie here, but I did want to share one transformational experience with her, 3 days after she passed. [I am in more pain and grief than I anticipated. And so I'm just taking each moment as it comes. Giving myself freedom not to share or engage about her. And freedom to write and share and express with you all too, if that feels supportive to me, and to Ellie 🥹 ]
I had a chat with Ellie (Sep 6)
She (Ellie)'s helping me grieve as I am painfully missing her perfect little body next to mine. And she told me a few things. (I just close my eyes and ask her to be with me — and there she is. Every time)
She told me she came to show me, give me and teach me these things:
1. I came to SHOW you how much love you are.
How much love you give. How much courage and energy and perseverance you have. And I came to SHOW you how profoundly you follow your heart. It didn’t make sense for you to take me home that day but you trusted your heart and not everyone else that was saying it would be too much.
2. I came to GIVE you a deeper appreciation of time.
I came to GIVE you more time. All the time you have to me. I’m now giving back to you for you 🥹
3. I came to TEACH you to speak up.
To rage if you need to. To ask for what you want even if it seems unreasonable to you. To find your voice in all its forms. At first you thought that I didn’t like you when I would growl at you. You felt as if I didn’t love you when I growled. But my growl was the only voice I had to tell you I was struggling. I was not ok. I felt scared. And you learned to listen. Tell Carol @soul2souldog thank you for helping you understand me. You let me and Carol teach you that my growls were just saying: “hey I need space! I’m afraid. I’m overwhelmed and need a little pause”. I came to teach you to growl when YOU need to. It’s ok to ask for space, and time and for what you need. It’s ok to speak up even if it’s hard for someone else to hear it.
I don’t know how to thank you all enough. The profound outpouring of love and support for me, Fenix, Eric and Michael @the_3_fluffeteers_adventures has been so helpful and healing ❤️🩹 🙏
I’m happy to report that Fenix is licking up all my tears. While he probably loves their saltyness I’m choosing to believe he is comforting me and helping me to dry my tears 😭
We will be celebrating Ellie in our Rainbow Bridge Club 🌈 call this month. Third Thursday of the month. See you then.
I love you.
Thanks for being my friend and Fenix’ family.
Always, Zoe
